Ideas Found & Lost

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Gif by: Kobe Nieuwoudt

Frantically, she searches for a pen and—forget paper, she’ll use her own hand and someone else’s if need be, she’s not above that. Anything to pin that idea to the ground, to keep it from floating away like a balloon into the sky. Anything to not be that child  crying for a balloon that’s already gone.

She keeps repeating the words, strips them down to the barest minimum, the most basic meaning. She moves heaven and earth for that pen, parts the red sea to reach it. And then finally, finally! The idea is bubbling in her head, intricate detail and symbolism weaving itself with the existing knowledge in her brain and—

But in that split second between holding the pen and putting the idea to paper, the whole world crumbles, all the characters fade. The verse and prose and metaphors are all gone, blown away like dandelions in the wind. She grasps onto the fading memory, hangs onto the words slipping into the void, but they don’t mean the same thing anymore. They don’t lead back to that world anymore.

For all intents and purposes, it is like the idea has never existed.


Note: Perhaps the most annoying, most unsatisfying feeling ever.

2 thoughts on “Ideas Found & Lost”

  1. This! I love the idea of writing the words on your hand or someone else’s. Those thoughts/ideas can be so fleeting. I’ve had what I feel is the perfect line/idea in my head only to lose it a second later. Where do these things go?! I’ve been known to jot down notes on just about anything I can find (napkin, back of a receipt, someone else’s business card) just so I don’t lose the idea. Thank you for taking the time to stop by my blog and leave such a nice comment. I like the look and feel of your blog and I’m sure I’ll be reading more of you.

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    1. Ah, I totally understand what you mean! Ideas are so precious, things you usually fish for, so you want to make sure to not let it go when you do get it. And you’re welcome! Reading that post from you really helped me ease into a calmer state of mind, so thank you for writing it, truly. And thank you! I’ll be looking forward to reading you more soon ^^

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